Bipolar restlessness sets in after midnight,the ideas start flowing,places I want to go. This doesn't happen often during the day, I would be amazed with how much I would accomplish.but for this bipolar it is now this is why I have named the blog Midnightmatters.Some are day people I just happen to function better at night.after midnight the energy starts to flow.I went over the financials,set a few more things to do goal list but of course what can I do at this hour? I did not eat much today just a soup,so now I am hungry.I can't sleep unless I eat something.I have been wanting to change hotels,somewhere with more late night conveniences that are within walking distance.
My daughter graduation is also on my mind,I really want this to be a special day for her she has earned it.
I did go out for the evening for some social fun.it was nice to get out.I must have had 5 baths today,I find them so relaxing,restless sets in when I start to think ,I want to go to the casino it is open.but by the time I get a cab,blow the money,there is no guarantees to winning,so here I sit and blog.I was checking out Mariela Estrada book tonight,Bipolar girl.It nice to see such an accomplishment,and Clive Wild book,My life as a Mood Swinger.to be called an Author and earning a living. I am looking forward to the day when I have a book published.Why not me I ask? are my expectations to high.
or the effort that is required like getting an agent,signing a deal,writing the material,I have to narrow down my scope,page by page what is wanted and needed by Mental health Consumers?I know that for me the most difficult part of the illness is connecting the dots,following through,staying on task,the restless keeps me jumping around.not putting all my eggs in one basket,working on my own wellness program seems challeging enough,however I enjoy the connection,when someone reaches out to me for advice or information on Bipolar and Addiction.I think it is my approach,that is timely and demanding.so for now I'll continue to write that's what I have always done.thanks for reading
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Midnight matters is a look into life with Bipolar and addiction it is not for the faint of heart but rather the inside prespective of living with an illness that can take over your life and thoughts... My aim is to educate and carry the message to those that suffer in silence and isolation..there is no shame or stima here my friends its only in acceptance and understanding can we truly recover and have life.. some don't get that choice...or chance
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Technical difficulites with the blog or the Bipolar Brain
This bipolar brain has completely screwed up my blog,I was going to add color and make it visually more interesting. I have ruined the look of my blog,this has made me rather irritated with myself as I have learned to do computer stuff trial and error so my technical skills are limited,however am eager always to push ahead with the learning process.after hours of trying to figure out what I did wrong in the process I came to no conclusion yet,after a goodnight sleep and a rest this bipolar brain I can tackle it again,but I won't I will leave it for the time being till I find a better quality solutions,word press maybe?website? there are a few solutions I would prefer someone else coming up with a design or branding for me.that would be the easier softer way.but this bipolar likes to do everything the hard way.I love the challenge so when I am up to it i will add it to my growing list of things to do.
Thanks for reading
Thanks for reading