Some days I'll call them low moods

I call them low moods,as I just don't like the word Depression I can't believe I even wrote it it just urks me it implies no hope and I am a very optimistic person usually. Bipolars do have depression and on my day of low moods they have in my life lasted days weeks and months.

I am now fully aware of what makes up my low moods.but when when I first started having them I had no clue.just that I was no longer functioning, no interest in anything, sleeping sometimes 1o-15 hours a day everyday and still no energy, feelings of being overwhelmed by what I don't know as I was always asleep but during my times I was awake the thinking of despair would not go way.thoughts like what's happening to me? I can't even take care of myself any more? how am I going to manage my life? what will become of me.normally I am high functioning and multitasking but during these times I am not able to do very much.
I became more and more isolated I didn't want people to see me like this.I didn't feel good and it showed in my face and my appearence.my confidence was stripped from me completely.
I have since learn alot about the illness and ways that I can improve my quality of life and have had great success.
I do have the odd day when the D word come to the surface and rears its ugly head.but now I know its a dangerous place for me to entertain.I can't go there or stay there.
I would joke with the doctor just give me a some-thing some-thing so I can snap out of it.
it's a dark lonely place.with no end in sight.but I am here to tell you my friends it does end as all things do.
I have to take my well-being into account and do all the things I can to feel good and be good
and on the low mood days like today I started the day off right prayer/meditation my i hour walk,,water, veggies aah I see there is no sunshine today see the sun doesn't shine everyday my friends.