Ok not everything is because of Bipolar

OK not everything is because of bipolar.I am Scottish with a strong will and character.have you ever seen Brave heart.the Scots won the war with might and their bare hands.Thank-you
The fight is on with myself and everyone that comes into my territory.yes I am a BITCH a heartless one at that!!!
Life teaches you this.If I didn't bitch how in the hell would anything get done.
The day started very early 8;45 to be exact as you know at midnight matters,this is prime sleeping time for the Queen BITCH,the dogs from the neighbourhood at the hotel decided to come to the sliding doors and irritate Lucy and Luke,well Luke has my personality does not like other dogs and all hell broke loose.I draw the curtains to see what the hell was going on the owner of these canine thought it was funny.I was less than impressed with the sun glaring in my eyes.I walked the dogs to clear the path of least resistance all doggies fled to there proper places.as did there owners.
Not friendly,yeah not when your barking up the wrong tree asshole.
When when whats his face gets back from who knows where.He wants to go get the dogs new winter gear.sounds like fun.WRONG,I have to stop at several stores to get the right coats,try them on and off,different styles as mad dog see other dogs he goes wild dog gone wild..Mister asshole as he is otherwise called decides,uumm lets look at everything else in the store but what we came for.My level of tolerance is -20 at this point,I just want to get the goods and get the hell out of there.NOPE,NOTTA
new leashes,collars,coats,sweaters,oh and matching shit picker upper bags.
The dogs look better than we do,I still do not have a winter coat.the bill a whopping $240.00.with my less than dress to impress self.the fancy dogs,and whats his face we get back to the car.The screaming match begins.with me doing all the scream he tries to protect himself with a less than impressive argument.Please shut-up or make your point and it better be a valid one.Next stop wall-mart.this time I go by myself.ah it is not busy,so I fill the cart with,more doggie stuff toys,a bed,
bones,I get myself a $25,00 fleece track suit,That's right at walmart,I am styling now
since I threw out my bras I really must stop throwing my things out.I need a bra.
these puppies are not standing straight.Bags in hand I set off the alarm.she checks the receipt off to the car get in.He opens his mouth and says WHY DID YOU BUY A DOG BED..well those are the last words out of his mouth it set me off as an fire alarm.he has been bugging me for a new dog bed every time we go to walmart.so I get one.pretty nice yeah.WRONG again.I just lost my mind and temper..way beyond controllable.I changed my clothes in the car,yes in the car.we stop at Tim Horton's,I toss my old pants that had a hole in them in the garbage.get smokes quick before I must deliver
him back to his MOTHER.or a body bag whichever comes first.
ok so we walk the dogs at the park.I am continuing to yell and tell him he is an IDIOT
well should be end of story wright.WRONG again.now the dogs are barking mad,I am yelling,and he is still trying to explain,explain what exactly why your fucking pissing me off.oh his answer. must be PMS time again.Last straw buddy.drop me off at bingo.do not speak an.aahh but I was shaking like a loon I was so angry.
it took the whole session of bingo to calm and a beer at the bar finally.
I get back to the hotel,ready to get a bath,with bubbles he left the bags in the car after he said he had taken everything out of the car.so If I am half nuts exactly what does that make you.
It is 5am I am all fired up like a raging wildfire.sometimes the fire of BITCH is the
only thing that matters.
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I am so relaxed my brain can't think?

The morning started off with hubby leaving for work the unusual routine a kiss to wake-me up. I am not the happiest morning person I tell him to get going snuggle back under the blankets and grumble while I think why does he wake me up some nerve.
This morning is the first day without him and the dogs kept whining at the door hoping for masters return.Awe isn't that cute,tried to get them to come and cuddle but they where not having it.they won I am up.at 7am so I play with them and take them for our walk down by the lake checking out the scenery it is so beautiful the sights the sounds.surrounded by the beauty of life, my new life..In port Credit
after the dogs and I had our fun we walked back to the hotel.decided I would take advantage of the buffet breakfast that was included with the suite.coffee to.
there where people sitting at tables. a few older couples, kids,two big women that loved the buffet for sure.as I was eating my brown toast,banana,they men where sneezing and coughing blowing there noises..yuk while I eat.woof down the food I was outta there just seemed really gross and the thought of the germs floating in mid-air was enough for me.went back to the room to go on-line to seem as though I have done some kind of work.the pool was awaiting me I went and there was only one other person who was leaving first I went in to the hot-tub I could feel the jets against my muscles the heat of the rapid water.reduced me to relax.15 minutes and time to swim.I did about 20 lengths of the pool..back to the room after I dried off.
back to twitter and face book.To rave about my life.does anyone care no.but I do it anyway.
it keeps me busy,I was suppose to do other things like make money.but that is on hold again.turns out I really can have my cake and eat it to afterall.
so I thought I work on my blog as iis so wonderfully quite the dogs are napping,the only thing buzzing in hear is the mini-fridge.
I am so relaxed my brain can't think this is unusual.
Relaxed what a concept?my only question is how long will it last?
On that note I am going to have an afternoon nap 1;30 pm.with all the workload today
I am relaxed watching everyone work so hard.
Strting to see the good life,is for me.
I can accept that today
Have yourself a great day I am!

Some days are better than others

Some days are better than others..
Today being not one of them, not for any reason my head just tells me so,the day started after another all niter,I was tired and needed to sleep at 11am but the dogs where restless and the guys downstairs where doing some work the dogs kept barking I finally went to sleep,then my neighbour knocked at the door,to see if I was alright quite unusual as he has never done this before.I was half asleep said I was fine however he did looked concerned which left me thinking as I hit my pillow I'm I really OK,with the move still have yet to go physically as I am now in an empty house.never mind I said I am OK but for me to sleep at noon is a sign I went to sleep till 10pm.I then went out with the dogs got a bite to eat,which brought another question to mind? I have been off my healthy program for 4 days.I did manage my 1 hour walk at midnight.hhmm I am off kilter it is a sign I came home then had a bath soaking in the tub and meditating.
pure bliss.I thought I just needed to rest,be still and quiet.some days are better than others after quiet contemplation.the peace within is making be very calm.in a
somewhat situation.but the rest is needed at times like these
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