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This Blog is not for the faint of heart,my direct approach is to address the importance of lifestyle choices.. education and awareness.the story will unfold Midnight matters ..days just slip away..and nights get longer writing has been a passion of mine now I share it with my audience. sharing my stength.hope,faith Everything in between Thanks for visiting come back soon!

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Showing posts with label quite. Show all posts
Showing posts with label quite. Show all posts

Monday, September 14, 2009

The quite sounds of nothing

It is Monday 4;30 pm I am out on the deck with the laptop,dogs are quietly chewing there bones..After the week-end I spent time with friends and family.I couldn't help but notice how quite it is the subtle sounds of the bees buzzing they are always following.The girls and I went for a night out of gambling.no one hit,but as I was smoking my cigarette a older gut Greek with white hair approached me and my girlfriend he whips out of his pocket a stack of hundreds.then his brother hit a jackpot on the machine I was sitting next to.he felt obliged to show me the money as well a stack of 100.00 bills not just a few.a good 10,000 worth.or more.I can tell you funds are short for me at the moment and it was like I hit the jackpot ching ching.as they walked off I was thinking he even said stop thinking so much.We all went home in the Hurst a black vechel that feels so gangster.a quiet ride home this morning I slept till 1pm unusual late.but I needed the sleep,the afternoon breeze and the bees buzzing kids in the distant background,cars driving by.The stillness of the day will bring surprises by night.anything that comes this week will be a huge surprise.I love surprises how about you?
thanks for reading
Susan xo

Monday, August 31, 2009

I am so relaxed my brain can't think?


The morning started off with hubby leaving for work the unusual routine a kiss to wake-me up. I am not the happiest morning person I tell him to get going snuggle back under the blankets and grumble while I think why does he wake me up some nerve.
This morning is the first day without him and the dogs kept whining at the door hoping for masters return.Awe isn't that cute,tried to get them to come and cuddle but they where not having it.they won I am up.at 7am so I play with them and take them for our walk down by the lake checking out the scenery it is so beautiful the sights the sounds.surrounded by the beauty of life, my new life..In port Credit
after the dogs and I had our fun we walked back to the hotel.decided I would take advantage of the buffet breakfast that was included with the suite.coffee to.
there where people sitting at tables. a few older couples, kids,two big women that loved the buffet for sure.as I was eating my brown toast,banana,they men where sneezing and coughing blowing there noises..yuk while I eat.woof down the food I was outta there just seemed really gross and the thought of the germs floating in mid-air was enough for me.went back to the room to go on-line to seem as though I have done some kind of work.the pool was awaiting me I went and there was only one other person who was leaving first I went in to the hot-tub I could feel the jets against my muscles the heat of the rapid water.reduced me to relax.15 minutes and time to swim.I did about 20 lengths of the pool..back to the room after I dried off.
back to twitter and face book.To rave about my life.does anyone care no.but I do it anyway.
it keeps me busy,I was suppose to do other things like make money.but that is on hold again.turns out I really can have my cake and eat it to afterall.
so I thought I work on my blog as iis so wonderfully quite the dogs are napping,the only thing buzzing in hear is the mini-fridge.
I am so relaxed my brain can't think this is unusual.
Relaxed what a concept?my only question is how long will it last?
On that note I am going to have an afternoon nap 1;30 pm.with all the workload today
I am relaxed watching everyone work so hard.
Strting to see the good life,is for me.
I can accept that today
Have yourself a great day I am!

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