All that really matters

All that really matters is You and the family,friends and what is left behind..
A piece of yourself that people will remember you by,when death is at all of our doors we cannot pre determine when this time will come.but are we ready, are spirits in tact for the end time with God on judgement day are we going to burn in hell or live everlasting life.Many don't believe there is a God I do I have his his touch in my life and others so I am called upon..
In this life God says to be in the world not of the world..with so many Deaths happening I had to write this blog.some famous and some not so famous never really having an input of value to others lives I always thought the good die young..
and many are walking dead..they have no reason to live but to complain about there misery,how life has done them wrong..
All that really matters to me in this life is that my children have become what they should..for there own lives and there children's this impact is so very important it will affect the generations to come,what I want from this life on a personal level
to encourage others that life is worth living and one can start when it really doesn`t seem possible..when all hope is lost..I love to see Gods power and Love in the injustices of life..that all things are possible
Faith has guided me to the impossible and even when I m in my doubts Gods Mercy and Grace is upon me.
We all have the valleys of self doubt..but they are just that self-doubt..
when in doubt my Mother would say do nothing..I could never understand this concept now I do..When we get out of our own small minded ways of understanding then God can really do his work.. Miracles
The miracle called life

Avoidance

The past few weeks I have been in the mode of avoiding the realities of my life..Why?
I have come to the conclusion the with every phone call comes a problem..and I have chosen not to react to others problems or take on the emotional crap that comes with it..I am usually very compassionate and understanding however the last few weeks I am none of these things..I have a unique gift of discernment and I can see things coming from a mile away..but no one listens they call for support which at this time I am unable to give..especially when they don't want to listen or follow my suggestions..keep on keeping on and see what comes about and latley the results are aweful..it can be avoided the difficulties, the health problems, deaths, however all of these things are at the door or the end of the line and quite frankly it contributes to my depressed state..so what do I do I avoid..stop answering the phone..the door and participating in my life as at times I feel the pain that others go through..and often I take it on..however this time something is different I am allowing others to deal cope and learn from the own trials and tribulations it is the best teacher..I cannot save the world..this just is not within my reach..even though I wish I could reduce the suffering in which people bring apon themself for whatever reasons they choose..let go and let god..be still..and as difficult as this process has been for me.as my family issues are taking it's toll..It is not my problem..am I being selfish I ask myself maybe..but with my own wellness to consider
I must make that a high priority
I cannot medicate myself because you have a problem...reducing the outside stressors
has others thinking that I don't care..don't they get it Susan no longer is going to come running every time there is a problem.I am not going to let the drama of life to get me down..it is a dangerous place I have a choice today and I am not going there..Avoidance is a protective mode..I stand on guard