BPD in OKC: Revealing myself - 1,000th blog post

BPD in OKC: Revealing myself - 1,000th blog post

Cooking..they say will sell books

Cooking they say will sell books as it has done for Julia Child's.In reading about the craze of Julia&Julie.it brought me to the point of inspired yes but remember I gave up on the cooking part.The only thing cooking ever really gave me was wider hips, loads of dishes and people that could keep quite long enough to eat there meals which is really the benefits of feeding people for me.It keeps them quite.long enough to figure out what is for dessert a few more minutes of silence whew.

That being said My experiment my solace from house duties thus far.Right now I am hungry and there not a stitch of food in the cupboards or fridge so as I pondered what to eat,out of boredom really and trying to kill some time I said to myself fasting is good.closed the door to the fridge and had some water aahhh.

Refreshing to say the least it is 9:15 am.waiting for my girlfriends to come by around noon at which time we will go out for lunch,a salad,with salmon is what is on my mind.

Eating healthier is a challenge when one is not cooking the meals,veggies on the go
somehow doesn't sound so appealing,Tim Horton's has been getting a little to much business from in the last few days I love the coffee oh I really do,but it puts me off kilter inside and out.

So for some in writing there cook books makes them rich and famous,and gives them something to do.Women are not to be undervalued just because they can cook you a meal
shhhh keep quite

Celebrating my life,Today is my 46th Birthday

Ok so it's my birthday,not just any birthday a celebration of my life.who every thought I'd make it thus far,Not me

In getting an early start to the celebrations.I did an overview of my life,a sort of gratitude reminder of how lucky I am to be me.I have a wonderful family,a great many friends,and most important to me is my life and my experience that in turn help others.

Like today,I was able to help 4 people with alcohol problems,which in turn makes me question living as an adult of an alcoholic parent.My father to whom is long gone now but lives everyday through me and our family.see he did not have a choice with his illness and I do.just in that precious gift alone it is amazing.

To have the gift of my life and experience to share with others..Is so rewarding,however I must always remember in my celebration,there are others that still suffer.

that is the path for most the suffering but once you can accept,and release all in life is promised.

It is not in the achievement or reaching the goals so much but those that walk with you along the way,seeing them grow and flourish.and being a part of it.

This is really the ultimate I have ever seen.the love that exists through me and in me is from God. as I could never take the credit..

So at the end of this day I share a little bit of me along the way..
so that it inspires something in you to grow and make that change
One thing I have learned is never settle for what you think your worthy of
as what you think is far short of what your worthy of

Thanks Happy Birthday to me
Cheers to us!

Some days are better than others

Some days are better than others..
Today being not one of them, not for any reason my head just tells me so,the day started after another all niter,I was tired and needed to sleep at 11am but the dogs where restless and the guys downstairs where doing some work the dogs kept barking I finally went to sleep,then my neighbour knocked at the door,to see if I was alright quite unusual as he has never done this before.I was half asleep said I was fine however he did looked concerned which left me thinking as I hit my pillow I'm I really OK,with the move still have yet to go physically as I am now in an empty house.never mind I said I am OK but for me to sleep at noon is a sign I went to sleep till 10pm.I then went out with the dogs got a bite to eat,which brought another question to mind? I have been off my healthy program for 4 days.I did manage my 1 hour walk at midnight.hhmm I am off kilter it is a sign I came home then had a bath soaking in the tub and meditating.
pure bliss.I thought I just needed to rest,be still and quiet.some days are better than others after quiet contemplation.the peace within is making be very calm.in a
somewhat situation.but the rest is needed at times like these
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BPD in OKC: Bringing bipolar into the light

BPD in OKC: Bringing bipolar into the light

The adventure is in my mind,soon the body will catch up

The adventures are in my mind, soon my body will catch up I have been thinking..oh no not that again.I can think myself crazy.as a rapid - cycler bipolar my mind can go from imaginative,highly creative to where I am going to go and what am I going to do
who will I see,is everyone alright, as the afternoon progressed I finally got my body in gear and got going.looking for the adventure my mind is creating and in doing so we went for a drive and ended up in Port Credit.

A small town on the lake,beautiful scenery.parks,cafes,patios,people,the feeling I had being there was happy,calm,and most of all inspired.I have been looking for a change in my living arrangements something more suitable for my lifestyle now,simple and beautiful as I walked long the boardwalk looking at the lake.I love the water it makes me feel calm.

I have been looking for accommodations,no not another house as I first anticipated.apartment hotels with all the amenities and the view is spectacular.I can walk outdoors to nearby everything picture perfect I was saying as I had my dinner on the patio.the music was playing Bob Marley.Everything is going to be alright don't worry this song I love and reggae music especially Bob Marley calms my soul.
After our lovely walk along the boardwalk.then checking out accommodations.I have made a decision to move to Port Credit finally something that interest me.that gets me going, excited this is no small feat believe me.
when I got home back on-line checking things out Mental Illness the topic of my life

I breath it daily I live it.this month is the second anniversary of my school friend Lynn she was Bipolar and died as a result of suicide, at her funeral I committed my work to educate,share, on the experience of living with Mental health issues and addictions.so that others and myself will not suffer in silence but with our voice those that still suffer may choose life and living. Recovery is possible one day at a time.Previous to the Mental illness diagnosis.I worked with alcoholics and addictions
as this to is a part of my story and my father died from alcoholism.

Through my own recovery it has been the biggest challenge of my life yet the most rewarding.to share my courage strength and hope.with others.not by teaching and preaching.but by example and the power to carry that out..Reminds me daily that it a life worth living.
For that I am grateful
many don't get that choice or chance I have been given both
Thanks for reading
Susan xox

Housework and mundane chores of life

Overwhelmed by housework and the mundane chores of life.It has been a few years now I have been thinking of ways to conquer the miles high loads of laundry and dishes.First I thought well I'll just do it yes do it it seems easy right well just after it is done there is more to do it is never-ending.I have finally conquered the battle of housework for some it may come easy and it once did for me I either enlisted help of a housekeeper or family.but nowadays my loads are not as much.just seems to much for me.when I have to look at the dishes piled in the sink and load them in the dish washer or when the laundry is piled in there baskets calling me to come put them in the washer.then fold oh I have finally put an end to it.I have simplified my life I am down to a suitcase of clothes and not a dish to be seen whew what a relief I can tell you.Tonight I went to the park with the dogs and hubby we had a barbecue veggies and steak
.then guess what no dishes just 2 paper plates which we tossed yahoo.
we had a wonderful time to play walked and enjoy our time together as well as take in some beautiful nature now I call that living I am on an experiment for 1 month excluding all forms of house duties including the house
bills non-existent still a few days to go just a few details to close off loose ends oh I know your asking why because I can