Poverty sucks

It seems whenever I am in a low mood,I have no money do the two go hand in hand in makes me wonder,when I am in a high mood the shopping, spending is endless.there is always enough money to suit me.
but right now my mood is low has been for 4 days,and not a penny in sight.so this sucks I know it is temporary as I get money tomorrow,the word budget keeps comming to my attention,one of those words I have never lived by.I have faith that the money is always there,It is not however is this caused by my low mood,or does having no money cause my low mood,or is it the crash from living high for awhile? just a few thoughts mood and money..
Let's talk about Poverty it sucks the big one and even though I have expereinced it several times in my life.I just don't like it,thats why I work and save.
but some have to live it every day,where is the next money coming,baby bonus,government aid,how is the food going to stretch till the end of the month?
what about a single person with no dependants the rents here in Toronto are quite high,unless you live in sub standard housing one could never make it?
Poverty I am sure affects many with Mental Health and Addictions.however it does seem that there is always enough money for the drug of choice.It makes me wonder if this is due to the fact many are really just happy and content with this way of life?
if so why should I be the one to promote change?
Promoting change is that there are alternatives.the alternative to Mental Health and Addictions is life free of all bondage including poverty.
These are my thoughts today.
In the meantime I am getting ready to move on as poverty has never been the norm for me.nor will it ever be.but some can be very happy.or are they?
Thanks for reading till next time Susan

Relocating doesn't mean a thing if you don't know where to go..

Relocating doesn't mean a thing if you don't know where to go..As you all know I am on my experiment a sabbatical of sort from domestic life,responsibilities,family..
I am not even sure why? Do I need a reason.The thought behind the madness was to buy a house,the dream house. I am short 20,000 but will work for it.I have no doubt that I will reach the goal,what I am doubting is the timeline.with summer winding down,the thought of being on the road in winter does not appeal to me,I do have a trip in mind in November to Punta Cana at least it is warm there.right now I have little winter clothes with me,it is cool.I'll exchange my summer gear for winter when I go to my storage unit.My level are low.moods,sleeping, eating,signs of the D word,although we do expect that when the seasons change..There is no sunshine today,
it is dark and gloomy like my mood.
I have noticed the stillness of nothing,it is time to move on..I am restless.
The new job with the Mental health and Addictions panel starts in November
in the meantime I'll try to work next week as this week is very slow just like me.
thanks for reading
Susan xo.

The quite sounds of nothing

It is Monday 4;30 pm I am out on the deck with the laptop,dogs are quietly chewing there bones..After the week-end I spent time with friends and family.I couldn't help but notice how quite it is the subtle sounds of the bees buzzing they are always following.The girls and I went for a night out of gambling.no one hit,but as I was smoking my cigarette a older gut Greek with white hair approached me and my girlfriend he whips out of his pocket a stack of hundreds.then his brother hit a jackpot on the machine I was sitting next to.he felt obliged to show me the money as well a stack of 100.00 bills not just a few.a good 10,000 worth.or more.I can tell you funds are short for me at the moment and it was like I hit the jackpot ching ching.as they walked off I was thinking he even said stop thinking so much.We all went home in the Hurst a black vechel that feels so gangster.a quiet ride home this morning I slept till 1pm unusual late.but I needed the sleep,the afternoon breeze and the bees buzzing kids in the distant background,cars driving by.The stillness of the day will bring surprises by night.anything that comes this week will be a huge surprise.I love surprises how about you?
thanks for reading
Susan xo

Hoods can teach main street the value of community

It has been an interesting day in the hoods of our community Malvern..Why is it called the Hood? A community,first and foremost,where people got your back,if you ain't from the hood you'll never understand..
I am from the Hood children play as moms watch on,basic survival is really about helping one another to get through the day.
Beautiful people,that like a simpler way of life survival,it a dog eat dog hood the strong survive the best and the worst today. There was a drug overdose with the cops around even city pulse a TV network,this is every day in the hoods people die,Guns..drugs,domestic violence.The kids play in the concrete jungle.parking lots running from on coming cars..sports,fights,bikes and oh the music plays.nice cars drive by and wave,people pass the day talking, working,helping each other,visiting one another,
Night is approaching,It is rather a quite evening after last night,when someone did an overdose.another funeral in the morning.
Main street can learn a little something about community from the hood..a place we call home,come back to, then everyone wants out including me.Some get that chance or choice.just remember where ya came from and why ya left..

Good-Morning Freedom Fighters

I am still on my experiment,as you know I moved out of my more than stable environment for a little instability..I defiantly blew the budget with my living in the lap of luxury time.so I ended up at my long time girlfriends of 30 yrs Coco Puff I call her..This morning was the first day of school,there a lot of Happy Mommas this morning,Mom's are freedom fighters every day of there lives..fighting for the child's freedom,It is a reminder to me all the hard work that goes into raising a family.not that I ever could forget how time consuming and stressful it can be. This morning I finally called the phone company and hydro,It was like I had a direct line no answering machine's to tell instruct what numbers to press, for which department oh how that usually bugs me.Not today ,it's my lucky day the lady on the other line was thanking me for my patience,Wow it is my lucky day a first time for Patience,she also said I was cheerful and Chipper..I said it is probably due to the fact I was closing my accounts.Thank-you and Good-bye.I am enjoying my road trip and experiment so far,My family thinks I am not being responsible at the moment.It is my life my time,To be Susan'.
Have a great day freedom fighters xo

5am and raring to go go

I have noticed lately every Sunday Morning I am rearing to go go...like there are things to do.this is a day when the Men in the family sleep in from there hard work week.but will I let them rest,probably not.Sunday morning is the day I want to go for breakfast then church spend time with the family I have always loved Sundays It is my best day of the week.
so I sit here 5am waiting for someone to awake but even the dogs are sleeping..
Ill do my walk early,the dawn approaches ready to shine another nice day..
as the summer winds to a close,the last week-end of the summer,kids back to school soon.and labour day on Monday.since the ones who labour need there rest..just for today I will let them..
Have a great end of summer week-end xo

From bad to worse

The day started late,woke up around 4pm.I have been staying with my daughter who is 4 months pregnant,her moods are fluctuating,she wants support,but on her terms,this is not easy,I knew that when I came and was going to stay the night I am still here,
financially speaking it has gone from bad to worse,with everyone on my case about responsibility,imagine there telling me how to manage my affairs,it so enlighting as the financial manager with funds less than to manage,see I do tend to gamble and things work in my favor maybe not this time,or the best is yet to come.for today I am still ok just the way the family is responding when times are tight,where is the faith people,I can't lose and won't they just never understand but when the goings good they are happy,right there like dirty shirts,but when thigs are tight financially I am seeing sour puss faces.it is the long week-end at this rate the week-end will be super long.labour day.after a night of yet another jackpot free evening,came come and watched a movie with my daughter.Labour Pains it was appropriate as she did have a laugh,I said we should make a video of her pregnancy so she could see herself in action,with a stare and glare that could rip me part,I will have to watch her sleep in the dark,Good-night moody girl sweet dreams