Detox of the mind body and spirit

Walking together in life's journey,as you all know my spiritual path has always been a source of strength for me.To know that my higher power who I call God has led me down the roads.sometimes my own will gets me of course.having said that in times of self-discovery many things have been revealed to me.sometimes quickly,but at times very slowly.My own stubbornness to be open has more often than not stunted my recovery.
The art of listening has been revealed to me.Listen to what are the needs of keeping myself healthy and whole,in spite of diagnosis,emotional immaturity,negative thinking.
Why am I not happy? are things in my life not quite what I expected them to be?
Life changes..It cannot stay this way.
Oppression under my own emotions.Time to GET UP!
Time to do something different?
I was eating alot..something I haven't done in along time.Realizing I must pour out..instead of pouring in..
food,drink,activities.
We binge to keep from purging.
When something goes as we had not expected or hoped for.Extreme reaction to negative emotions
1)Repression makes us sick
2)Rebellion makes us stupid
A lesson from A true You.
Which leads me to the body..It was recommended by my Dr before the weather changed to take Omega 3 and Vitamin..I failed to follow through.
I will pick this up tomorrow and blog the results.
Emotions for recovery can be alot of negative feelings.We want to get better but we hang on for dear life of feeling of the past.
Opening up about our feelings,confessing them one to another,so that we can be a safe place for others to do the same.
When we close off our emotions we stop them from functioning.
I get mad often at others, myself, my circumstances.
It is not what I expected for my life..But as my will joins with the will of my higher power it has become a source of patience and peace.
I don't like it when others don't understand exactly what it is I am doing with my life.I don't like it when others hurt me intentionally with their expectations or limitations.
I don't like it when finances are not flowing.
everything stops as soon as I get resentments.
I forgive those that have hurt me..I hope you can find it in your own heart to forgive me.
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The benefit is sex

Today just like any other day,lately within the past few days.I have not been doing my walks.I really do see a change in mood to low.instantly.This is somewhat different as my appetite is eating everything in sight.especially carbs and chocolate cake.with my weight loss this year the last thing I want is weight gain.
yesterday I added more vegetable fish and protein which seemed to curb the cravings.
It got me to thinking about exercise as walking is my form of physical activity.
cuddled under mounds of blankets,the dogs snuggled in.I needed to get moving.up then back down.just wasn't cutting it.My husband was making his lunch second day in a row.
this is also unusual.I got to thinking about sex as a form of exercise.
To my husbands delight,I have been neglecting this part of the relationship.
After an hour,hearts beating,passions renewed.The feeling of our bodies uniting was for me a least,a great form of exercise and a release of tension.that was building within me.
We also looked at each with wonder,softly caressing during the cool down.cuddling was a feeling of warmth and love.
Natures natural best medicine
How is your sex life lately? Do you want the security of a great sex life within the
marriage filled with love and wonder
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Susan

Walking Together Ministries

2010 is fast approaching,I have decided to go a step further,in my work with Mental Health and Addictions.Walking Together Ministries is the answer to the call.

Mission Statement:We seek to grow in knowledge and service advocating for the best care for all that struggle with Mental Health & Addictions.
Healing wellness and recovery supporting those in the community.
We know the suffering of those with brain disorders,disturbing feelings,thoughts and behaviors.We care for the whole person body,heart,mind,spirit.
Seeking fullness of life in daily living
As companions we share the journey,share our story that you may find courage strength and hope in recovery.

Encouragement

Encouragement comes in many forms.it could be a smile on a child's face,the glimmer of hope in your own eyes,the kind words that make all the difference in your day.
A challenge overcome,a pet jumping in delight,the morning sun,the midnight moon,the scent of beautiful flowers.A comfort food,a soothing drink,an answered prayer.
Those of us that deal with Mental health and Addictions often find ourselves in awkward situations with unfamiliar faces.We can be our own worst critic.The negative thinking,our words can often over take the reality at best,or the fact that life is and can be downright rotten in some situations created or otherwise.
None of us can live up to the perfectionism in which we would like people and places things to be.
Today when I was filled with negative thinking triggered by family.I was approached by a young man with an e-mail.He said that he enjoyed my posts,and reading my writing he to has bipolar,it helped him.
I can tell you in the frame of mind I have been in it made the world of difference to me today.I also spoke to a lady that told me her 4 week old grandaughter was at sick kids hospital on life support.They too did not celebrate Christmas.
A kind member of our group said u do make a difference that my purpose in serving others,matters.
I do make a difference,even on my off days.
This is a gift I am truly grateful for..I'd better start showing it.
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Till next time Susan

A Bipolar Christmas

I would like to take this opportunity to wish you a Merry Christmas.I know for some of us it is Christmas.the Merry part well maybe not today?
This year I choose to spend Christmas alone.maybe your alone today by choice or otherwise.Family tensions of what is required of us to meet their expectations can be overwhelming,stressful and downright selfish in my view.
I watched a movie in the comfort of my hotel room,A Christmas Choir.It was about homeless people finding meaning and purpose for their lives,in doing so they where able collectively to give back to the community through there voice and the gift of music.coming from undervalued lives the director of the choir was an executive who was caught up in his own life not caring for others with his re found love of music and some faith saw this group through the adversity they faced.finding love and hope in most awkward places and faces.
I can tell you being alone this Christmas brought out feelings I have not really had to feel before today.Bipolar has a way of making you do things out of character.
like wanting to be alone and feeling somewhat guilty because I know that my family are angry with me.I am usually Santa clause..Santa didn't come to town..I am certain the spirit of Christmas did.
Our families may be angry and lash out at us,just like mine did this Christmas.
Initially my feeling were hurt,but understanding others and myself gives me a sense of peace.I am not Santa,or God.but a person that struggles just like the rest.
I have taken myself of face book,as family tried,personally attack me there.
I also went on-line to see what is available to people with Mental Health and addictions support at Christmas.not much for Mental health.however my blog did appear.which makes me think that I am on the right path,whoever doesn't like it well to bad.I am called to serve,the community of Mental health and addictions.
I would like to know how I could serve you better in the New Year?
what are you dealing with in your journey with Mental Health and Addictions?
Collectively how can we make it so others don't suffer alone?
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Merry Christmas

Waking the dead.

This morning,I was wakened by a nudge to my shoulder,I opened my eyes and asked what do you want? there is always something.Not this morning,just wanted to say good-bye.
all I could utter is get lost ASSHOLE.The dogs where scheduled to start daycare this morning at 7am,with the expectations they would be dropped off.not by be of course 7am is far to early for this sleeping beauty.He called me a princess Diva,as I rolled over.I said it's Queen Bitch to you get it straight. Princess Diva well I was offended.Now he has awakened the dead and 10 minutes has passed,I said in the 10 minutes you stood here yapping,the dogs could have been at daycare and you on your way.I have to work was his response,and left finally.I called the daycare and said Good-morning Matt,in a crumbling tone of voice.I said I will not come until later what possessed me to even think of being out the door at 7am was beyond me.In his Good-morning laughter tone.He said come when it suit you.someone who understands my thinking.end of arguement,or debate.
I went to the hotel front desk to pay my keep for the day.Two lovely ladies,dressed,make-up and cheerful attitude,all I could think is why am I surrounded by all these happy morning people.then there me who begrudges rolling over.I take the electronic card,head back to the room.I look at the dogs and said are you ready to go,they also jumped with glee,put on there coats and mine.The morning is cloudy,and dull as we walked more happy morning people saying how cute the dogs are which always puts a smile on my face,we pass a dog,Luke remains calm.
Progress,two guys are coming out of the store,called Luke a soldier.he has an army coat.I laughed and so did they.we approach the daycare I was feeling,like a proud mom
taking her kids to the first day of school.The daycare attendants took them from me,they ran to play with the other dogs.I left with separation issues and a sense of relief,thanking the good lord for such a facility and 2 minutes walk from where I am.
Back at the room I think now what.missing them already.made a few calls talked about New Years eve plans,ordered tickets for a dance at the Delta Markham Hotel.
called my best pal Coco,we laughed,about my morning mishaps,another cheerful morning person.called my mother but by this time I was cheerful myself.we talked and laughed.
worked on my writings,face book with my daughter,twittered away some thoughts.
had a bath,got dressed and time to get the kids(dogs) they where happy to see me.
I talked to them as a proud parent would,saying good job,they both where very calm and proud.We get back to the room,they both curl up and go to sleep.nap time sounds good to me.
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Writing my best seller..A word at a time

The object of the experiment of faith..Is to see if this path I am on my at this stage of my life is the moment of truth.
If you have been following the blog,I have put all other aspects of my existence on hold.
To write a word at a time towards my Best seller book completed for publishing.
There can be so many desire of the heart,that pull at the string,I am focused and active daily in this important project.Today I recognized through prayer and obedience,that it is about surrendering my ego.The book is not about me,however the subject matter Mental health and addictions.seemed to be.As I have lived it.
The certainty of purpose was clarified,to minister to others in there place of need.
not based on my opinion as much because people don't really need a bat over the head when they are already down,but a place of comfort and understanding,encouraged through testimony of example that are relate able to the reader.I have also been doing alot of reading,something out of character for me a thriller suspense novel.
A signature style of writing to call my own.take the reader to a place better than their present reality.When I use to read.I would read the whole book in one or two days.now when I read I limit it to two or three chapters and mediate,absorb what I have read,then I read a few more chapters the next day.
I also write in a similar fashion..topic comes to mind,then I write,write, write about it.
now when an idea or topic,title comes to write I jot it down.then come back to it in a day or two.it gives me a chance to conceptualize what I am writing.
putting the emphasis on form,editing the details as I go along.
A word at a time,one day at a time.
The book unfolds.
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