Love and Happiness is Bipolar

Love and Happiness is bipolar.Have you ever looked at your loved ones,and thought to yourself they are nuts? they talk way to much? finding fault with everything in you and vise versa.
They call us Bipolar exactly what are they?
Our loved ones, We in turn react to them not out of love,but rash and irritable,unable to communicate our feelings,it is their tough luck we murmur under our breath.Every action ,has a reaction.Is your reaction to them loving? or irritable.I know mine is irritable.wake me of from a sound sleep,I'll rip your head off.say something I don't like well I am furious for days.
Love is not irritable.
I am also challenged this Month by the Love Dare by Huntley street.The first day was thought fullness.We had to do something thoughtful for our partner,and in turn they did something thoughtful,discussing each later in the evening.It was nice to receive something without demanding it.

Happiness,This a topic I have been working on,since I discovered the happiness Project.Certainly this is an achievable goal.some days are better than most.
When am I happy,when things go my way..usually.when I feel like a winner.
Happiness is laughter,joy,accomplishing,doing what matters to me.but life doesn't seem to work that way now does it?
Happiness is interrupted by people,situations and circumstances mostly by my reactions to them.Happiness is a choice,but in Mental illness or Addictions really is their much to be happy about?
Is it merely an excusable existence of misery.
I made a list of what makes me happy.at first I couldn't think of much,but I did muster up sunshine and walking,with -26 degrees and lots of snow,we'll there goes happiness.Right? wrong
Here is a practical example of the first day of the Happiness Project.
It had occured to me when I do what I love,I am happy
I was awake most of the night,thought I should crawl into bed at 8am,let me check my messages.I did however my phone had been disconnected,I was furious at Fido!
I was suppose to pay the bill on the 2nd which I failed to do.
The customer service rep asked me the usual identification questions,put me on hold,said thank-you for your patience,Really,I yelled I need to talk to a supervisor
within 2 minutes and don't put me on hold again.To my surprise a supervisor came,said she would not charge me the $25 re-connection fee and would put my phone on immediately.Results occur when I am a raving Bipolar Mad women.I said thank-you and hung up.But remember this is my first day of the happiness project,not a good start.

I did laugh about later,after talking to my girlfriend she said.I wish I could be like you and get results when dealing with bill companies.

I heard a women was running a detox place for sobered alcoholics,but had to turn them away due to lack of money.
I pledge 20.00 to this women and made 150.00 an hour later.

Dogs went to daycare,which make them happy as well as myself.
Money also makes me happy but with the holiday season,it a little scarce at the moment.Through the rest of the day I had similar thoughts of why do people irritate me so much and steal my joy.
is it my reaction.that steals my happiness could be..more work to do!
Doing things I love,what a concept it is that easy isn't it?
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Could you dare to be in love and happy

Women's Mental Health

Women are at greater risk for interpersonal victimization,including childhood abuse.
Substance abuse often occurs as a result of abuse.
Women's mental Health cannot be achieved without equal access to basic rights,education,safety,income security,housing.
non drug alternatives that address emotional distress in women,nutrition,exercise,employment,phychotherapy,education.
Indicators of health..not just illness.
Women have different mental health requirements than men.
Women are caregivers for children and family.Stress in most areas of ones life can trigger Mental Health decline or a family history of mental health issues
Bipolar and depression are often self-medicated through drugs and alcohol or acting out behaviors.sex,shopping gambling,internet.
Support are often unavailable to those with Mental health issues or treatment is often not discussed either from fear ,stigma of what others will think.or how mental health will affect the family unit.
The most frequent help course of a action when a women goes into her doctor in crisis describes her inability to cope,emotions which are overwhelming,diagnosed then sent home with perceptions.that is the amount of support given to women with mental health issues maybe weekly visits on-going care to evaluate medications

Upon diagnosis one has to crawl before they can walk,either mental health and addictions have been a way of life,or early detection is clear to the one that enters the recovery process.

When I was figuring this whole new world I had been faced with.I went from one crisis to another with periods of stability.The onset was when I finally made a decision that made me admit to myself something was not right in my lifestyle choices,that I wanted something different for my children, that I had known all my life,that this chain of family history could and would be broken had I sought.

Many emotions flooded upon the first step,like a crying baby,shaking all over,the realization of what I had become?

The anger & frustration,visits to Dr's,hospitals,but through it was the isolation
I kept it that way,my dirty little secret.

I began public speaking about the process of recovery,still celebrating with a beer at the end of each month sober.

It took be 18 months to get a one year chip from AA,that was a year from denial.
walking by the beer store was easier when it was closed.but when it was open I got the shakes,sweats,anxiety.

All my drinking friends,the life of the party,lifestyle well it all came to a halt.
sending me straight to depression.

The fog of alcoholism and depression lifted which really took a few more years.
and a 12 step program,my higher power giving up and surrendering of my own will.

Not an easy task for a proud,do it my way,kind of character.

I had neglected the period of depression,I took many anti-depressants,through out these periods of my life,Prozac sent me straight to detox as I drank alcohol,I was not warned of the effects.

Wellbrutrin was always a lift from utter despair which lasted weeks, months.that and B12 shots

Antidepressant where no longer giving me that lift,I was not drinking.still something was not right up down and all around on my thoughts and behaviors.

Walked into my GP's office told him how I was feeling,He said I was bipolar.
ok now I am alcoholic and Bipolar I am not mad...I am angry.

looked at him and started to cry,holding back the tears I said I need proof he asked a few questions,with his DR book and I was Bipolar right there in black and white print.

I slammed the door behind me with more perception's & prescriptions in hand,I was furious,I walked home after falling asleep in a field,on a summer day thinking why me?

Why me? Pour me another drink.I'd rather be drunk than face the fact I was now crazy?

stay tune the fun begins
Crazy me!
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Come to my rescue advice for the rescuer in Bipolar addictions

I am addressing the needs of the rescuer of those with Bipolar addictions.
You could be a friend,a spouse,mother,father,daughter,son,therapist,doctor.
This very moment your thinking of ways to help,the addicted bipolar before it gets out of control.
If your at this point,it's way out of control.Just admit it to yourself.
The reason for this Blog post is to address your need to help or rescue?
Does it come from your childhood? Or have you never received help when you needed it the most?
Do you yourself come from abuse or neglect.are you a child of an addict or alcoholic?
The fact that your reading this and may have answered yes to one or more of my questions?
You can't help yourself much less the bipolar addict.So my suggestion to you stop trying to save them and save yourself first.
The only real approach to helping anyone is by helping yourself,walking the walk.
The do as I say approach will not work with bipolar addicts.I'm sure more than once they have told you where to go..in not so nice terms.
The only reason they are in this sort of I need you relationship is to meet the need.
Another form of addiction.enabling.
If just for once you let the individual run there own life,their own illness.only then will they first and for most ADMIT..TAKE RESPONSIBILITY,DECIDE..
to either change, seek help(professional),working on their own road to recovery.It is different for each of us,some never make the choice.You will need to address your own issue ie AL anon,addictions,AA,spirituality,church, are a few suggestions for your own health and well-being and if you have a calling for such work.then get involved.
Your life is not your project..it's Gods project John O

Nothing is ever the way it is suppose to be..Everything is the way it is~Shiuki

Knowing others is wisdom..Knowing self is enlightment

Hope this helps
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The Best Bipolar Blog 2010

I just did a google search of bipolar blogs,mine was know where to be found.
I have been working diligently on my writings for a year.
We all need some recognition for our labours.Don't we?
My primary purpose is to carry the message to those that still suffer.
The goal of last year was to write daily,give support,create my audience.
The goal for this year is to widen my scope,write by best seller,The best bipolar blog of 2010
Steps to take to meet this goal.network within the bipolar community,finish a complete draft of my book for publishing by August 13 2010.my birthday!
To meet these goals things I have to do to get going..Organize and plan content for the book,and blog...make a brand for my ministry.bring it all together.
The benefits of not complaining each day, work has to be done,complain about anything that occurs each day in this faith journey is not an option.the benefits will far out weigh any fault or complaints I or my thoughts can muster.

Dancing my way to 2010

January 01 2010
The first day of a new decade.That is in itself pretty exciting.In my celebratory state last night I was dancing and jumping around.I hurt my knee.with a few glasses of champagne I hardly even noticed till this first day of the year.morning
Today I got up to go into the bathroom before hitting the floor.I thought hhmm this is strange I can no longer deny the fact I am getting older.The dogs came to lick my face they seemed concerned.I had to wake up mister wonderful.to help me off the floor.
went back to sleep as it is pretty obvious I am not mobile.
This walking together idea is pretty hard when you can't walk..God does have a sense of humour..really in the pain all I could do was laugh.
The benefits..of a bad knee I got served apon all day..The rent for living is to serve. Serve me..is my 2010 new motto
Let see what tomorrow brings..ooops did I just say that??
Happy New years to you thanks for joining me in the walk..
When we stand up!

Last Blog Post for 2009

I have been sending out Happy New Years wishes to everyone,and receiving a few myself.
I have been preparing for this evening adding some feng shui,something different.
Getting rid of old energies,clearing the clutter inside and out.
as 2009 is ending I reflect.I pause,really what was good about it? well to get out of that mindset there was some good.I moved,I cut off those around me that could not bring good energy to the table.watching my children grow in their Independence,the birth of a new grandson,watching my daughter graduate college,continued my writing process.
a closer relationship with God and my husband,most off all stability in my own Mental health and helping others achieve wellness.Walking everyday,for an hour prayer and meditation, healthier eating habits and the willingness.
Things that I didn't like about the year..Alot of fighting within my family,the separation,the distance.We have always been close.The opinions, the gossip,the backstabbing.It seemed the more stable I got..The more unstable others became around me.
No longer being the helping hand..the I got to do it all mind framed..seems not to agree with others.
It is an adjustment I am sure,but long over due.
My relationship with my husband has become very close,no outside distractions.His love and care means the world to me..He makes his own lunch now, does the errands.
seems happier in doing them.
I have cut out all stress to me housework,laundry,family,bills,the fact of simplifying make it calm and peaceful for me.
The only Hope I have for the New years is continue health and well being for myself and my family,love,faith,hope, charity,prosperity health for all of us
Happy New Years good-bye 2009
Bring it on 2010
Susan xo

Detox of the mind body and spirit

Walking together in life's journey,as you all know my spiritual path has always been a source of strength for me.To know that my higher power who I call God has led me down the roads.sometimes my own will gets me of course.having said that in times of self-discovery many things have been revealed to me.sometimes quickly,but at times very slowly.My own stubbornness to be open has more often than not stunted my recovery.
The art of listening has been revealed to me.Listen to what are the needs of keeping myself healthy and whole,in spite of diagnosis,emotional immaturity,negative thinking.
Why am I not happy? are things in my life not quite what I expected them to be?
Life changes..It cannot stay this way.
Oppression under my own emotions.Time to GET UP!
Time to do something different?
I was eating alot..something I haven't done in along time.Realizing I must pour out..instead of pouring in..
food,drink,activities.
We binge to keep from purging.
When something goes as we had not expected or hoped for.Extreme reaction to negative emotions
1)Repression makes us sick
2)Rebellion makes us stupid
A lesson from A true You.
Which leads me to the body..It was recommended by my Dr before the weather changed to take Omega 3 and Vitamin..I failed to follow through.
I will pick this up tomorrow and blog the results.
Emotions for recovery can be alot of negative feelings.We want to get better but we hang on for dear life of feeling of the past.
Opening up about our feelings,confessing them one to another,so that we can be a safe place for others to do the same.
When we close off our emotions we stop them from functioning.
I get mad often at others, myself, my circumstances.
It is not what I expected for my life..But as my will joins with the will of my higher power it has become a source of patience and peace.
I don't like it when others don't understand exactly what it is I am doing with my life.I don't like it when others hurt me intentionally with their expectations or limitations.
I don't like it when finances are not flowing.
everything stops as soon as I get resentments.
I forgive those that have hurt me..I hope you can find it in your own heart to forgive me.
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