Genetics of Bipolar

Bipolar has a genetic component.It can be passed down through generations.
In my own family there are many of us that has now been diagnosed with Bipolar.I was the first which in a way.I feel blessed.I was able to do the research,I spent many hours resaerching the illness but more importantly the hours spent dealing with the illness,helping others within our group,informing family of symptoms and education and support available to them.I am sure it will make there journey less scary.to know they are not alone.Many I have known personally have suffered in silence and now are dead.My main point of advocacy is to be sure people talk about their illness and seek the professional help required to deal with the illness.We can't recover on our own.Bipolar is a life long illness but with treatment it is manageable
Daily life can be seen as a challenge but what doesn't break us makes us stronger.
Even in our times of self doubt,low self esteem something carries us.
higher power may you find it within yourself.
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Back to normal---- whatever that is.

I have feeling my old self. back to normal I could say whatever that is.
My normal is being able to function at a fast pace most call it mania.
It just makes me feel good shopping,spending, gambling all my favorite things to do.
Less sleep is required which suites me fine.I just wish the switches would give advance notice as to prepare for them.For example save more money for frivolous shopping sprees and gambling.The only thing good about not having the money is it keeps me in check and glued into my realities.
Good thing as the Dr will check me into reality as well Bipolar the illness has a symptom of acting out behaviors.such as listed above included are drinking,increased appetite,increased promiscuity,increased energy levels. I call it fun.
It can last a few days or weeks even months if not corrected by medications.
I'll enjoy the ride till my next visit.
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The inner calm

The inner calm comes from a place of simplicity.Taking things easy,not being so hard on myself.trying to make everything perfect in a less than perfect world.
Slow down enjoy the moment rather than always being in my head with the rambling of my thoughts.It takes practice believe me.when a thought comes in I first write about them just to get it out.Then I go for a walk just the breeze on my face,the calm that natures beauty brings me.when I walk as though I am in a hurry I remind myslef to slow down,I say to hi to others stop and have a chat.Just the connection however brief makes like I accomplished something.Sometimes sure feeling of how is this adding up to anything come in,feelings of defeat,I look around and compare myself to others.
I feel like I don't measure up at times.I am where I am cause that is the way it is. It all really boils down to acceptance and my fight to accept my own reality.
I haven't written in a long while,because really who am I kidding I am not a writer even though I write but the whole purpose was to share my story and in hopes it helps someone struggling just like me.
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Let's get real about Bipolar

Let's get real about bipolar.Bipolar is a Mental illness can also have physical and behavioral affects as well.In a time capsule that just will not give.Everything seems more difficult.
Relationships,energy levels up and down like a yo-yo out of control.
An appetite that can be big or small dependant on moods.This is hard on a girls figure to say the least.Then there are times when I can barley get out of bed never-mind turn over in it..always searching for the converter didn't I just have it.
Times like this are so peaceful when all I have are the thundering ideas that run amok in my brain.The midnight hours make it to exhausting to complete anything for the following day.Plan what? my days and life ahead.Gees I don't even know if I can make.Like a dog chases his own tale,returning to his own vomit.
Loud noises send us through the roof....I know count to ten and keep calm..really who has this much time.I am always in a hurry to get away..from...nothing.
It does get better,doesn't it?
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In for a ride

This Bipolar thing makes you hold on tight and go with the ride.Sometimes when we let it get out of control,there is nothing to hold on too.
It has been over a month,I am back on meds.It seems days are calmer and I wake up thinking life is not so bad after all.The previous manic episode had me bewildered.
Still making me question,what happened?
Wasn't I doing all the right things to keep Bipolar at bay.
Bipolar isn't something we can control.The illness rears its ugly head,in moods,episodes,acting out behaviours.keeping everything in checks and balances can make the strongest of characters thin and weary.
I am looking better and feeling better.fewer outbursts and episodes that is something that only meds can do.
I accept that.
Just an update,How are you doing?

Bipolar Personality

I am beginning to think...Yes that is right Bipolar love to over think.Isn't that what meds are for?
Bipolar personality,I was created this way.To deal with the madness of the world and the people in it.
Today started off with a knock at the door my daughter came to visit,which is always nice.Headed out to do some errands,I was quickly reminded that the girl who was suppose to be serving me.the customer.That would be me. Apparently the young girl thought she was at a social event,kept talking with her co-workers.I was standing there,in non air-conditioning waiting and waiting as she turned to talk for the third time,the bipolar came out.I did say to her I want service she told me to wait.I can tell you the bipolar went into crazy mode,asked for her name.then she proceeded to argue with me.I insisted I was not there to chit chat with her.and get to the task at hand.I was fuming mad. She said have a nice day.I plan on it Bitch,as for you,you will have to feed your five kids on 10.00 an hour.
The rest of the afternoon,I was at the beach with my daughter,grandson and the dogs.
We walked,talked and played as well as worked on our tans.
This calm and quite is beneficial,at my age.
Then I was getting the bus home,after a night out.I was standing at the front as the young TTC driver was approaching the bus stop.He said to me ring the bell.
as he misses my stop. I am one of two people on the bus.what did he not see me?
Really he just wanted to be rude.I am mean..when people are rude.
Geez come on the customer want service and this does not include lip service.
If your going to dish it out.Please be ready to deal with this Bipolar personality.
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Happy Birthday Baby Boy..Oh my your 31

Happy Birthday to my baby boy,my one and only son.
The gift of life...Today I got up early,I've been thinking of you since yesterday gone by.Thinking of your truimphs and limits each you face with a cool calm.
with a humor that is not easy to explain.your funny smirk and qurky way.
I have seen you comfort others in despair,forgiving the unforgivable in my books.
I see the way your children light up when you enter the room.
watching them takes me back to your youth.They are so much like you.
The day you where put in my arms I knew what love was.31 years later the unconditional love a mother has for her son.is well beautiful.
Thanks for being a wonderful son and brother and father.
adding more than I could ever give..To your gift of life.
Have a great day..Birthday Boy~