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This Blog is not for the faint of heart,my direct approach is to address the importance of lifestyle choices.. education and awareness.the story will unfold Midnight matters ..days just slip away..and nights get longer writing has been a passion of mine now I share it with my audience. sharing my stength.hope,faith Everything in between Thanks for visiting come back soon!

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Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Love and Happiness is Bipolar

Love and Happiness is bipolar.Have you ever looked at your loved ones,and thought to yourself they are nuts? they talk way to much? finding fault with everything in you and vise versa.
They call us Bipolar exactly what are they?
Our loved ones, We in turn react to them not out of love,but rash and irritable,unable to communicate our feelings,it is their tough luck we murmur under our breath.Every action ,has a reaction.Is your reaction to them loving? or irritable.I know mine is irritable.wake me of from a sound sleep,I'll rip your head off.say something I don't like well I am furious for days.
Love is not irritable.
I am also challenged this Month by the Love Dare by Huntley street.The first day was thought fullness.We had to do something thoughtful for our partner,and in turn they did something thoughtful,discussing each later in the evening.It was nice to receive something without demanding it.

Happiness,This a topic I have been working on,since I discovered the happiness Project.Certainly this is an achievable goal.some days are better than most.
When am I happy,when things go my way..usually.when I feel like a winner.
Happiness is laughter,joy,accomplishing,doing what matters to me.but life doesn't seem to work that way now does it?
Happiness is interrupted by people,situations and circumstances mostly by my reactions to them.Happiness is a choice,but in Mental illness or Addictions really is their much to be happy about?
Is it merely an excusable existence of misery.
I made a list of what makes me happy.at first I couldn't think of much,but I did muster up sunshine and walking,with -26 degrees and lots of snow,we'll there goes happiness.Right? wrong
Here is a practical example of the first day of the Happiness Project.
It had occured to me when I do what I love,I am happy
I was awake most of the night,thought I should crawl into bed at 8am,let me check my messages.I did however my phone had been disconnected,I was furious at Fido!
I was suppose to pay the bill on the 2nd which I failed to do.
The customer service rep asked me the usual identification questions,put me on hold,said thank-you for your patience,Really,I yelled I need to talk to a supervisor
within 2 minutes and don't put me on hold again.To my surprise a supervisor came,said she would not charge me the $25 re-connection fee and would put my phone on immediately.Results occur when I am a raving Bipolar Mad women.I said thank-you and hung up.But remember this is my first day of the happiness project,not a good start.

I did laugh about later,after talking to my girlfriend she said.I wish I could be like you and get results when dealing with bill companies.

I heard a women was running a detox place for sobered alcoholics,but had to turn them away due to lack of money.
I pledge 20.00 to this women and made 150.00 an hour later.

Dogs went to daycare,which make them happy as well as myself.
Money also makes me happy but with the holiday season,it a little scarce at the moment.Through the rest of the day I had similar thoughts of why do people irritate me so much and steal my joy.
is it my reaction.that steals my happiness could be..more work to do!
Doing things I love,what a concept it is that easy isn't it?
thanks for reading post a comment or suggestions
Could you dare to be in love and happy

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