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This Blog is not for the faint of heart,my direct approach is to address the importance of lifestyle choices.. education and awareness.the story will unfold Midnight matters ..days just slip away..and nights get longer writing has been a passion of mine now I share it with my audience. sharing my stength.hope,faith Everything in between Thanks for visiting come back soon!

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Having faith is easy when you got it like that..but when ya don't.Yikes

Faith is easy when you got it like that but when ya don't,worry sets in.
As you know I am doing an experiment about Faith and direction,living in a hotel can get rather expensive with other daily needs,and I am sick so work is not happening.
Everything I do at the moment seems to just go wrong,where the lady luck or the faith must be busy else where as it is just not happening Today?
I must pay the room by 1;00 pm tomorrow not a cent in sight till Friday,so what will I do come tomorrow,I guess I'll have to wait till tomorrow?yikes
I went to the Delta Hotel to see if I could make a buck,no such luck seems no ones was at that the bar,we all have down times,I guess this is my turn.
I can tell you right at the moment I don't like it..but for today I am OK.
just feeling some self-doubt did I make the right move I guess I'll see soon enough
in the meantime,I'll keep the faith and get some sleep tomorrow will take care of itself.just as today did
Good-night
if you want to help a sister out call me 905-783-9401 120.00 will pay the room it is all I need for tomorrow thanks or e-mail me susansedgemore@sympatico.ca
here's to us

In the darkest hours

It is 3;00 pm in the darkness of clouds and cold weather,with a cold.the stillness allows for me to write which is fine.I slept till about 11;00 when maid service asked if I needed anything,I said yes today as the suite needed to be cleaned,and fresh linens after all I am sick.The thought of the germs in the air is not pleasant,she came to the door with mask.Left me thinking about HI NI the swine flu,after vomiting through the night and early morning,I had checked to see if the symptoms are similar sure enough they are.It brought me into a frenzy and panic mode.
However I lived through the night,and woke again this morning to live another day.
I walked the dogs in the rain as the suite was being cleaned.Lucy doesn't like the rain or cold and left me standing there with the leash in hand.She was gone,calling out for her,I walked towards the suite she was inside already the suite is on the first floor of the hotel. I left the door open I get back to her looking up at me as to say,It is to cold for this doggie.Then I went to ordered soup from room service,
as I was doing this my other dog Luke like being on the desk at the computer as if he has typing skills and something to say.The dogs are napping now.Lucy curled up in the chair next to me a Luke is guarding the door.
as for me I am nursing the cold with fluids and rest.thinking I really need to get the clothes out of storage,like it or not the weather is changing,I need to keep warm.did I think that this summer would last through till October.
The concern for the day,with being sick,and living in the hotel how am I going to keep this up? as long as it last I guess.till tomorrow? yikes
send cash or e-mail if you want to help in my experiment
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