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This Blog is not for the faint of heart,my direct approach is to address the importance of lifestyle choices.. education and awareness.the story will unfold Midnight matters ..days just slip away..and nights get longer writing has been a passion of mine now I share it with my audience. sharing my stength.hope,faith Everything in between Thanks for visiting come back soon!


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Saturday, October 17, 2009

Bipolar Restlessness

Bipolar restlessness sets in after midnight,the ideas start flowing,places I want to go. This doesn't happen often during the day, I would be amazed with how much I would accomplish.but for this bipolar it is now this is why I have named the blog Midnightmatters.Some are day people I just happen to function better at night.after midnight the energy starts to flow.I went over the financials,set a few more things to do goal list but of course what can I do at this hour? I did not eat much today just a soup,so now I am hungry.I can't sleep unless I eat something.I have been wanting to change hotels,somewhere with more late night conveniences that are within walking distance.
My daughter graduation is also on my mind,I really want this to be a special day for her she has earned it.
I did go out for the evening for some social fun.it was nice to get out.I must have had 5 baths today,I find them so relaxing,restless sets in when I start to think ,I want to go to the casino it is open.but by the time I get a cab,blow the money,there is no guarantees to winning,so here I sit and blog.I was checking out Mariela Estrada book tonight,Bipolar girl.It nice to see such an accomplishment,and Clive Wild book,My life as a Mood Swinger.to be called an Author and earning a living. I am looking forward to the day when I have a book published.Why not me I ask? are my expectations to high.
or the effort that is required like getting an agent,signing a deal,writing the material,I have to narrow down my scope,page by page what is wanted and needed by Mental health Consumers?I know that for me the most difficult part of the illness is connecting the dots,following through,staying on task,the restless keeps me jumping around.not putting all my eggs in one basket,working on my own wellness program seems challeging enough,however I enjoy the connection,when someone reaches out to me for advice or information on Bipolar and Addiction.I think it is my approach,that is timely and demanding.so for now I'll continue to write that's what I have always done.thanks for reading
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  1. I got a new job recently and I am working 430PM to 11PM and it has helped with my BPD a lot. I get a lot more done with this schedule, for some reason. And I like it. I am up so early today because I wanted extra hours but I wouldn't want to do this all the time.

  2. Hi Jayne,Congrat's on the new job.BP really need to keep busy,that is for sure.Balance is key,
    Best of luck and thanks for posting your comment.
    I really appreciate YOU~
    Susan xo

  3. I too accomplish more at night. Now I have a name for it: Bipolar restlessness.


  4. I was up until 4am this morning, feeling like a freak because I was functioning so well, that doesn't happen during the day often! Was a relief to read this. At 52 I am learning so much!!

  5. I think you have a story to tell. I am glad you have the blog. It is so obvious in your writing how hard you work on your own wellness, and by sharing you are helping others.

    I come to life in the early mornings. I wish I was more productive at night. I am awake but would rather go out, run around and play.


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