rollercoaster ride

The Hypomania is a sort of rollercoaster ride up,its been a few days now no sleep,the snapping when someone wants to speak,Gosh is that all they do is talk about nothing that keeps me interested..I mean really you open your mouth and my concentration is outta here..not to mention my body got to go..then gambling starts.yeah I love to gamble..I went out last night and won 400.00 not bad for a few
hours.I have cleaned the whole house.and throwing the clutter out,watching that I may need that..ooppss the light comes on a garage sale lets sell everything..It's a good thing I have people watching out for me or I'd be outta of a home too.I want to move to a bigger more spacious house.It only cost 500,000 but whats that to the mania
not to mention I am just short 460,000 ha..It's coming I can feel it.just another 20,000 and the house is mine.In the meantime I have slowed down with work.why not sure and the bills are piling up,not that I am behind but the last spending spree I am still paying for.the energy and calmness I feel during the hypomania stage is mixed up energy,no energy...calm yet irritable,thus I keep quite and to myself..
waiting for the break I need..just waiting which is unusual I know what I need to do.
yet I don't bother..My breakthrough is around the corner today Maybe? tomorrow possibly?but in the meantime I sit here typing away in the hopes that my true love will be useful to you and me that would be writing..It just isn't bringing the monetary gain just yet will it I guess so I work around the clock at this stuff networking,social media,blogging,support groups,website,it is coming together I am just not where I want to be yet? and maybe this is just what I am to be doing at this point of my life..the rewards are small but the gains are huge
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